Obedience: Action to Faith

Have you ever made some mistakes in life that caused you to be fearful of God using you in a mighty way? Have you ever held on to shame of your sins or of those close to you? Have you had every excuse in the book stop you from fully obeying God?I have and found myself at a crossroad last week, trying to figure out what was really going on. I called myself being in a 'mommy funk', but it was really something so much deeper than that. I love being a mommy and a wife. I love that I get to stay at home with my baby girl and teach her all I can to prepare her for this great big world. However, I found myself lost once again, searching for something more, searching for a part of me I have somewhat tried to run from.

Years ago God and I had a conversation about my purpose and His plans for my life. While in leadership I made some mistakes that disappointed me and caused me to take a detour from ministry. It isn't like I do not serve in different areas or volunteer at church. I just know that I was not fully walking in my God-given purpose. After a message I heard at a women's ministry service about touching God instead of asking for a touch, I found myself crying out to God in the shower. I have done it so many times before, but this time it was different! For a while I have been trying different ways to juggle growing my business, being an at home mom of a very active soon-to-be one-year old, a wife, a cook, and keeping the house clean. No matter what I tried, I kept hitting a brick wall and feeling like I was failing at it all! I was seeking God's face daily (literally the only thing that keeps me sane most days) , looking for an answer that He had already given me.

Funny, the revelation I had been getting as I seek God's face everyday before this night in the shower was, "Trust Me" and "Do you trust Me?" Of course I said I did, but did I really? That night last week, I realized that I had been walking in disobedience out of fear. Fear is a sign of not trusting God. I feared that my imperfections would come peaking through the surface if I fully walked in God's plans for my life, feared the judging snarls of religious people, feared stepping out on faith and God not providing. That realization broke me. I sat and cried in my husband's arms when I realized I was living out of disobedience to God and basically wasting time (to me at least). There are so many things that God placed upon my heart to do and I had the intentions of doing but never completed.

How can we ask God to do miraculous things in our life and open up new doors if we have yet to walk through the doors He has already opened? If God says to do something, big or small, we have to do it! Obedience is far greater than sacrifice, because it is the greatest sacrifice. It is through obedience to God that we lay down our selfish ambitions, our own plans, and control of our lives. Since I took one step forward and got back on track towards my purpose, God has already opened up doors! Don't hold yourself back!

-D. Michelle

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